Wednesday, April 13, 2011

An Innocent Man

I grew up listening to the music my older sisters liked, because I wanted to be just like them when I got older.  They seemed so old and wise - but anytime I reached the age they were, I felt like I had no clue what I was doing.  But that is a story for another day.   My sisters listened to typical 80s music and some 70s music.  In the car my parents listened to the Oldies station or some sort of easy listening.   I take with me a love for some great older groups/artists, especially Billy Joel, Chicago, Journey, Elton John, and Rod Stewart. 
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My sisters listened to Billy Joel's music over and over again that it was easy to memorize the lyrics to so many of the happy upbeat songs.  But as the time went on, I started to appriciate the lyrics too.   I have seen him in concert probably 5 times and have enjoyed each show. 

Two of my favorite songs has to do with trust.  After cop #1 I was really able to relate to "An Innocent Man' and "A Matter of Trust" and felt that the next person had to do a little work to get me to trust them, but then I'd open up and love unconditionally.  SI was willing to put up with my trust issue and then took full advantage of my sweetness.  While that relationship didn't end happily - I wonder how I will be able to handle trust in the future. Everytime I hear these songs (well, most of his songs) I sing along envisioning someone singing it to me, melting my heart to make me realize that 'wow, he is the one for me'.

I think enough time has passed by where it shouldn't be so hard for me to have some trust for someone else.  When I fall in love the next time, I will be ready and know that I have to tell myself this next person isn't my past, I can't hold them accountable for my issues.  It will be a little challenging, but I hope I know enough of the signs where I don't let bad things get too far.  I worry about another heartbreak but I am not going to let it stop me from trying. 

An Inncoent Man
Some people stay far away from the door
If there's a chance of it opening up
They hear a voice in the hall outside
And hope that it just passes by
Some people live with the fear of a touch
And the anger of having been a fool
They will not listen to anyone
So nobody tells them a lie
I know you're only protecting yourself
I know you're thinking of somebody else
Someone who hurt you
But I'm not above
Making up for the love
You've been denying you could ever feel
I'm not above doing anything
To restore your faith if I can
Some people see through the eyes of the old
Before they ever get look at the young
I'm only willing to hear you cry
Because I am an innocent man
Oh yes I am
Some people say they will never believe
Another promise they hear in the dark
Because they only remember too well
They heard somebody tell them before
Some people sleep all alone every night
Instead of taking a lover to bed
Some people find that's it's easier to hate
Than to wait anymore
I know you don't want to hear what I say
I know you're gonna keep turning away
But I've been there and if I can survive
I can keep you alive
I'm not above going through it again
I'm not above being cool for a while
If you're cruel to me I'll understand
Some people run from a possible fight
Some people figure they can never win
And although this is a fight I can lose
The accused is an innocent man
Oh yes I am
An innocent man
You know you only hurt yourself out of spite
I guess you'd rather be a martyr tonight
That's your decision
But I'm not below
Anybody I know
If there's a chance of resurrecting a love
I'm not above going back to the start
To find out where the heartache began
Some people hope for a miracle cure
Some people just accept the world as it is
But I'm not willing to lay down and die
Because I am an innocent man
I am an innocent man
Oh yes I am
An innocent man
copied from billyjoel.com

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