|Thankfully I did a test run, who would have thought |
it would take almost an hour to go 15 miles?
But the test wasn't quite like what I envisioned. I get there and there is probably 15 other people there for the same test. And the test turns out to be not only word, but excel and outlook too. Phew, I was wondering what they were going to quiz me on for two hours! But at the same time....yikes, I didn't expect that. I selected a seat and the proctor gave us instructions. The first test had a max time of 40 minutes for outlook. There were few pictures and strange questions...and so many questions I had no idea what the answer was. How can I fail an Outlook test when I used Outlook for my work mail for 10+ years? The proctor left the room just as I was finishing my Outlook test and loading my second test. But the screen didn't load. I sat there for a while waiting for him to return. 15 minutes pass and I get up and look in the hallways for him...nowhere. I go to the reception area thinking she can find the proctor, she wasn't there. I go back to the hallway with the bathroom....nowhere. People were starting to leave the test - they finished all the sections and there I was not being able to advance to the next exam. What kind of proctor is able to leave the room for so long? Was he pooping? Where was he? I have been a proctor for 13+ years, unacceptable in my book. I started to get nervous, the next group of candidates were coming at 10:15 and I still had 2 tests to take and I didn't know how many questions or what kind of time frame was allocated. I go back to my seat and start hitting buttons; not like there was a lot we can do from a test computer. Somehow, finally, I was able to get it to return to the main menu and tried to load the next test, and it worked. 5 minutes after that, the proctor finally showed back up; asshole. I wasted 20 minutes. Thankfully the next two exams were fairly easy. Sure I was the second to last person to leave, but it was still 20-30 minutes before the next group of people.
I have to say, the tests surprised me. I know how to use/work in the programs, but I may not know all the proper terminology...and they asked things like that. I felt inadequate. And many times there are several ways to perform a task and how do I know which one is more accurate? Or would they both be correct?
Results are posted in a week or so. I want to be optimistic - I doubt they only take into consideration the test scores...hopefully they look at the resume and skill set too. But I am nervous. I haven't felt like such a failure since, well, since I left the examination for my certification in December....but that I studied my ass off for and wasn't comfortable with all the topics...this...this I use all the time.
I left the exam site and returned home to mope. Two tough job things in two days. Disappointing. Discouraging. But it is now, more than ever, that I need to really apply myself. Look for jobs, write better cover letters, be more proactive. But I can't muster up that yet, and then I disappoint myself even more because I am moping around. I won't get any job if I don't apply. I know I need to do this, and I hope that tomorrow and the days after somehow re-energize me to want to be enthusiastic about job searching.
I deserve a great job. I have the skills and education....I just need to keep telling myself that and stop doubting myself just because it is hard to find a job. I've often thought people were lucky when things just work out so well...they move and land an awesome job just like that or know people who get them a job. I've had a lot of people try to help, which has been wonderful...but maybe I wouldn't appreciate everything as much if it was easy. Maybe I need hard and challenging. Maybe it is more real this way.