Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Day 24a - Make a playlist to someone - heartache

Day 24 - Make a playlist to someone - and explain why you chose the the songs. 
Well, I can go in one of two directions.  I can go with the songs I have related to so much in the last five years or I can go with the ones of my future.  Such tough decisions - and I am not good at making decisions right now, so I will do both [due to time constraints, part a is below, and part b will be forthcoming].

Playlist 1 - this is dedicated to SI or any other future man (not that I expect there to be) that will break my heart.  Some songs are the love we had, some are how I felt after the breakup, and some are for moving on.  In no particular order is my breakup playlist
  • Bruno Mars  - Grenade - Gave you all I had, And you tossed it in the trash, You tossed it in the trash, you did, To give me all your love, Is all I ever asked...
  • Adele - Rolling in the Deep - The scars of your love remind me of us, They keep me thinking that we almost had it all, The scars of your love, they leave me breathless, I can't help feeling, We could have had it all, Rolling in the deep, You had my heart inside of your hand, And you played it to the beat
  • Maroon 5 - Tangled - There is nothing left to say to you, that you wanat to hear, that you wanna to know.  I think you should go.  The things I've done are so shameful.  Your just innocent, A helpless victim in a spider's web.  And I am an insect going after anything I can get.
  • Rhiana - Take a Bow - Don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not, Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught, But you put on quite a show, Really had me going, But now it's time to go, Curtain's finally closing, That was quite a show, Very entertaining, But it's over now, Go on and take a bow
  • Bon Jovi - Shot Through the Heart - Would you be content to see me crying.  After all those little games you put me through. After all I've done for you you're lying.  Wouldn't it be nice to tell the truth. Didn't somebody somewhere say. You're gonna take a fall. I gave you everything. Now here's the curtain call
  • Toni Braxton - Un-Break my Heart - Un-break my heart, Say you'll love me again, Undo this hurt you caused, When you walked out the door, And walked out of my life, Un-cry these tears, I cried so many nights, Un-break my heart
  • Heart - These Dreams - But all I remember Are the dreams in the mist These dreams go on when I close my eyes Every second of the night I live another life These dreams that sleep when it's cold outside  Every moment I'm awake the further I'm away
  • Soft Cell - Tainted Love - Don't touch me please I cannot stand the way you tease I love you though you hurt me so Now I'm going to pack my things and go Tainted love, tainted love
  • Rob Thomas - Someday - Cause maybe someday, We'll figure all this out, We'll put an end to all our doubt, Try to find a way to just feel better now and, Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud, We'll be better off somehow, Someday
  • Billy Joel - Matter of Trust - Some love is just a lie of the mind, It's make believe until its only a matter of time, And some might have learned to adjust, but its always a matter of trust
  • Jordin Sparks - Tattoo - I loved you once, needed protection, You're still a part of everything I do, You're on my heart just like a tattoo, (Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you I'll always have you, I'll always have you)
  • Eve 6 - Inside Out - Want to put my tender, heart in a blender, Watch it spin around to a beautiful oblivion, Rendezvous then I'm through with you
  • Mariah Carey - My All - I'd give my all to have Just one more night with you I'd risk my life to feel Your body next to mine 'Cause I can't go on Living in the memory of our song I'd give my all for your love tonight 
  • Chicago - Hard Habit to Break - I guess I thought you'd be here forever, Another illusion I chose to create, You don't know what ya got until it's gone, And I found out a little too late, I was acting as if you were lucky to have me, Doin' you a favor I hardly knew you were there, But then you were gone and it was all wrong, Had no idea how much I cared, Now being without you Takes a lot of getting used to Should learn to live with it But I don't want to, Living without you, It's all a big mistake, Instead of getting easier, It's the hardest thing to take, I'm addicted to ya babe 
  • Donna Summer - I Will Survive -  At first I was afraid, I was petrified, I kept thinking I could never live without you by my side.  But then I spent so many nights thinking how you did me wrong, that I grew strong.
  • Genesis - That's All - Just as I thought it was going alright, I find out I'm wrong, when I thought I was right, s'always the same, it's just a shame, that's all, I could say day, and you'd say night, tell me it's black when I know that it's white, s'always the same, it's just a shame, that's all
  • No Doubt - Don't Speak -  You and me We used to be together Everyday together always I really feel That I'm losing my best friend, I can't believe This could be the end, It looks as though you're letting go And if it's real Well I don't want to know, Don't speak, I know just what you're saying, So please stop explaining, Don't tell me cause it hurts Don't speak
  • Evanescence - My Immortal - And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave, Your presence still lingers here, And it won't leave me alone
  • Matchbox 20 - Push - She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough, I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in, and I don't know if I've ever been really loved, By a hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's Gonna give, And I'm a little bit angry
  • Janis Joplin - Piece of My Heart - Have another little piece of my heart now, baby,You know you got it if it makes you feel good,. You're out on the streets looking good, And baby deep down in your heart I guess you know that it ain't right, Never, never, never, never, never, never hear me when I cry at night, Babe, and I cry all the time! But each time I tell myself that I, well I can't stand the pain, But when you hold me in your arms, I'll sing it once again
  • Barenaked Ladies - Call & Answer - I think it's getting to the point where I can be myself again,   I think it's getting to the point where we have almost made amends, I think it's the getting to the point that is the hardest part, and if you call, I will answer, and if you fall, I'll pick you up
  • 30 Seconds to Mars - Closer to the Edge - I don't remember the moment I tried to forget, I lost myself, is it better not said, I'm closer to the edge...No I'm not saying I'm sorry, One day maybe we'll meet again
  • Elvis Presley - Suspicious Minds - We're caught in a trap, I can't walk out, Because I love you too much baby, Why can't you see, What you're doing to me, When you don't believe a word I say?  We can't go on together With suspicious minds And we can't build our dreams On suspicious minds
  • Leona Lewis - Better in Time - Thinking that I deserve it, Now I realize that I really didn't know, If you didn't notice you mean everything, Quickly I'm learning to love again, All I know is I'm gonna be OK, Thought I couldn't live without you, It's gonna hurt when it heals too, It'll all get better in time,
    And even though I really love you, I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to, It'll all get better in time
  • Pink - Hell Wit Ya - But it doesn't seem fair you're so good to her, And I tried to pretend I didn't see all those things that you do, you couldn't do for me, I was in love wit ya, But the hell wit ya cuz you didn't wanna treat me right, I was in love wit ya, But the hell wit ya cuz you didn't wanna treat me right, Now ya got another girl in your life, givin her love all day and night, was in love wit ya, But the hell wit ya cuz you didn't wanna treat me right...What does she do to you, To make you give her everything like you never did for me, Call it jealousy, but it's killin me
  • The Script - Breakeven - What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you, And what am I supposed to say when I'm all choked up and you're ok, I'm falling to pieces, yeah, I'm falling to pieces, They say bad things happen for a reason, But no wise words gonna stop the bleeding 'Cause she's moved on while I'm still grieving, And when a heart breaks no it don't breakeven even
  • Sarah McLachlan - Stupid - how stupid could I be a simpleton could see that you're no good for me but you're the only one I see. love has made me a fool it set me on fire and watched as I floundered unable to speak except to cry out and wait for your answer but you come around in your time speaking of fabulous places create an oasis dries up as soon as you're gone
  • Alanis Morissette - You Outta Know - and every time you speak her name Does she know how you told me you'd hold me Until you died, till you died But you're still alive And I'm here to remind you Of the mess you left when you went away 
  • Air Supply - All Out of Love - I wish I could carry your smile in my heart, For times when my life seems so low, It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring, When today doesn't really know, doesn't really know I'm all out of love, I'm so lost without you
  • Candlebox - Far Behind - Now maybe I could have made my own mistakes, But I live with what I've known, And then maybe we might share in something great, But won't you look at where we've grown, Won't you look at where we've gone, But then someday comes tomorrow holds, a sense of what I fear for you in my mind, As you trip the final line, And that cold day when you lost control, It's a shame you left my life so soon you should have told me, But you left me far behind
  • Backstreet Boys - Quit Playing Games With My Heart - I live my life the way To keep you comin' back to me Everything I do is for you So what is it that you can't see Sometimes I wish I could turn back time, Impossible as it may seem But I wish I could so bad, baby You better quit playin' games with my heart
  • Cheap Trick - The Flame - Watching shadows move across the wall, I feel so frightened, I wanna run to you, I wanna call, But I've been hit by lightning, Just can't stand up for fallin' apart, Can't see through this veil across my heart, over you, You'll always be the one, You were the first, you'll be the last
  • Third Eye Blind - How's it Going to Be - I wonder how it's going to be, When you don't know me , How's it going to be, When you're sure I'm not there, How's it going to be, When there's no one there to talk to, Between you and me
  • Red Hot Chili Peppers - Under the Bridge - Sometimes I feel Like I don't have a partner Sometimes I feel Like my only friend
  • Roxette - It Must Have Been Love - It must have been love, but its over now
  • Adele - Set Fire to the Rain - But there is a side to you, that I never knew, never knew.  All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true.  And the games you'd play, you'd always win, always win.
  • Maroon 5 - Not Coming Home - When you refuse me You confuse me, What makes you think I'll let you in again, Think again my friend, Go on misuse me and abuse me, I'll come out stronger in the end, and does it make you sad, To find yourself alone, And does it make you mad, To find that I have grown, I'll bet it hurts so bad, To see the strength that I have shown
  • Chicago - Look Away - And from what you said, I know you've gotten over me; It'll never be the way it used to be., So if it's gotta be this way, Don't worry, baby, I can take the news okay. But if you see me walking by, And the tears are in my eyes, Look away, baby, look away. If we meet on the streets someday, And I don't know what to say, Look away, baby, look away. Don't look at me; I don't want you to see me this way
  • Katherine McPhee - Over It - Don't call, don't come by, ain't no use, don't ask me why, you'll never change, there'll be no more crying in the rain. Wanting you, to be wanting me. No that ain't no way to be. How I feel, read my lips, because I'm so over..Moving on, it's my time, you never were a friend of mine. Hurt at first, a little bit, but now I'm so over.
  • Frank Sinatra - Fly me to the Moon - Fill my heart with song, And let me sing for ever more, You are all I long for, All I worship and adore, In other words, please be true, In other words, I love you 
  • Poison - Every rose has its thorn - But now I hear you found somebody new, and that I never meant that much to you, To hear that tears me up inside, And to see you cuts me like a knife, I guess
  • Naked Eyes - Always something There to Remind Me - Well, how can I forget you, girl? When there is always something there to remind me. always something there to remind me. I was born to love her, and I'll never be free. You'll always be a part of me.
  • The Fray - Over my Head - I never knew I never knew that everything was falling through, That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue, To turn and run when all I needed was the truth, But that's how it's got to be, It's coming down to nothing more than apathy, I'd rather run the other way than stay and see, The smoke and who's still standing when it clears, Everyone knows I'm in Over my head
  • Matchbox 20 - Leave - I'm not saying there wasn't nothing wrong, I just didn't think you'd ever get tired of me, I'm now saying we ever had the right to hold on, I just didn't wanna let it get away from me, But if that's how it's gonna leave, Straight out from underneath, Then we'll see who's sorry now
  • Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending - You were everything, everything that I wanted, We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it, And all of the memories, so close to me, just fade away, All this time you were pretending, So much for my happy ending
  • Jet - Look What You Have Done - Oh, look what you've done You've made a fool of everyone Oh well, it seems like such fun Until you lose what you had won
  • Christina Perri - Jar of Hearts - Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore, You lost the love I loved the most, I learned to live, half alive And now you want me one more time, Who do you think you are? Runnin' 'round leaving scars, Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart.  You're gonna catch a cold, From the ice inside your soul, So don't come back for me, Who do you think you are?...I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed, ‘Cause you broke all your promises, And now you're back. You don't get to get me back
  • Lifehouse - Broken - I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing With a broken heart that's still beating In the pain, there is healing In your name I find meaning So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on I'm barely holdin' on to you...I'm hangin' on another day Just to see what you throw my way And I'm hanging on to the words you say You said that I will be OK
  • Pink - Please Don't Leave Me - How did I become so obnoxious, what is it with you that makes me act like this, I've never been this nasty, Can't you tell that this is all just a contest? The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest, But baby I don't mean it, I mean it, I promise


  1. Do you know how many of these songs on your list are on my list of all time favorite songs?! Great list!!

  2. Wait....You and this SI character split up a few years ago, right? You're still making playlists with him in mind?

    Not trying to be rude, but you might start trying to figure out a way to let this dude go. No future guy is ever going to want to wind up playing second fiddle to an ex from four years in the past.

  3. These were songs that were already on my 'breakup' playlist on my ipod. Not necessarly because of him, but because they are good breakup songs & because I actually do like the songs a lot.
    My future husband will be won't be too difficult for him to win my heart & what memories are left.