Tuesday, September 28, 2010

Tough decisions ahead

Goodness, I have been so bad this week in finding motivation to blog.  I have a lot on my mind.  I have been having some family issues, which make me want to change my life even more.  Couple that with my ongoing need to want a change of career and/or even move somewhere new to start over.  This past week I have been trying to decide what to do.  I am happy that as a free individual, the power to make my own decisions is great, however, at times, I wish someone would just say 'Denise, you are supposed to do this with your life and then you'll be happy' but that is not going to happen.  I am considering x-ray technician or mortuary science.  Two very different fields.  One I've been intrigued with for ten years, the other a new option.  I don't know if I will end up making the right choice, and that scares me.  Clearly, I have made a few bad choices.  My undergraduate degree, my graduate degree, my taste in men.  Somewhere in the last four years I have become scared to commit to anything.  Also, I have a ton of money in school loans do I dare add another $15,000 to that?  I do think going back to school to gain new/specific skills would help me.  My current degree in management makes it difficult to find a job since it can be used in many sectors how to narrow it down?  Finding a new job is hard, there is no question about that...but if I am not happy at work now, will working in a similar job make me happier? I doubt it...but maybe the company and client changes would be enough.    
The worst part is, even though I have narrowed it down to these two, they are not necessarily what I would have chosen 10 years ago if I could re-do my life.  If you can start over, what would you do? 

3 comments:

  1. Um, your blog is in a foreign language.

    And I'm dying of laughter over here because I have no idea what's wrong. If it's on your end or mine. But I tried copying and pasting to show you what it looks like, but when I pasted it into the comment, it changed to English. It looks like this:
    asfjagalkklsf !!klasfkjsafkjl! lkajsflksjfaoiwoqpn. September = Setemue.

    This is way more entertaining to me than it should be.

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  2. so I checked other ones and they were screwed up too! Weird! But it's back to normal now. Or maybe I was just hallucinating.

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  3. and now i can make a comment about the post:

    girl, I hear ya! I wish someone would be like, "This is what you are going to be doing 5 years from now and this is where you'll be living." How nice would that be? Life's all about taking chances, so just follow your heart, even if your heart sounds a little crazy. I have 20k in loans and am adding another 48 to it, so I hear ya about that, too. But, if it's going toward something that will make you happier, it's worth it.

    What's mortuary science?

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