The guy texted me asking me to come over so I can take advantage of him. A clear booty call. Question is...do I do it or not? In the 'for' column I have...well, at least it wouldn't be a one night stand and maybe I'll get a better read on him. In the 'bad idea' column is that it is clearly a booty call.
I went for it. I know, shame on me. But I really hate the idea of 'wasting' a number on a guy for sex just once. And I have a few guys back home that I'd sleep with on occasion/when the need arose, so it might not be a bad thing to have a guy out here for that purpose.
The decorative bed pillows were prepped (off the bed), the three candles lit, and the ceiling fan on. I commented on the fan being on and he said it was because I was so hot the last time. If nothing else, he remembered that and was fairly considerate when it came to my comfort.
The sex was fast. I didn't realize he came though; I have such a hard time with that sometimes. Why are guys so quiet? I certainly don't feel anything; am I supposed to? He took out his little toy and attempted to please me.
I hung around and we chatted about nothing interesting. Got dressed, he put on a movie and then half way through kicked me out because he was tired. At the door he asked me to follow up with him about the job, and I was surprised and asked if he really wanted to know or was just being polite. He claimed to want to know. I made a snide remark about not seeing each other for another 2-3 weeks and he seemed surprised that is how long it was since the last time. Maybe he is just genuinely clueless.
I left not feeling used or dirty or gross, I knew what I was getting when I accepted the invitation, but rather I felt disconnected and I don't care. Sure, I want a relationship...but this is not it. Maybe there will be more casual sex or maybe it will evolve. Maybe he'll go out with other people and realize I am the lesser evil and want to date - but by then it will be too late because I won't be second pick yet again.
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