I fear another dap of depression is kicking in. You'd think that things have been going OK with me the last few months - that I'd be happy - but I am not. Is it hormonal? Is it stress? Is it chemical? Is it disappointment?
I have my 'tool box' of things I've learned over the last year of life coaching - and while it is good stuff, it is stuff that when I am laying on the couch doing nothing, it not motivation for me wanting to be happy.
I am tried of living in this blur of life, constantly waiting for the next chapter or the next thing to look forward to. I am not content here - and keep wishing my life away with things that may or may not come.
I am still not ready for medication - although my primary care phsyican recommended it - because I don't want it to be a band-aid, a temporary fix. I want to kick the depression completly without medication.
All I can hope for is that each round of depression I will have will get shorter and shorter and that the time between get longer and longer.