I heard from ManFriend yesterday afternoon. This threw me off guard because I never thought I'd hear from him again, and I was OK with that.
He told me he wanted to reach out for a while, but he was re-diagnosed with cancer, and that upon hearing he contacted me because I was always so supportive and caring.
He continued to fill me in on his life and how great its been since he moved. I felt like he was rubbing it in my face, I stayed quiet and didn't offer too much information. Then he said something about what a wonderful person I am. I lashed out. Modesty aside, I know I am wonderful, I certainly don't need him to tell me that, especially because in the end he treated me like a worthless nobody. He apologized for his behavior saying that he probably needs therapy and end of relationships are hard on him. He wishes he could go back and change things, but obviously he cannot.
I didn't want to hear his excuses and I told him I would change a lot of things too....but I can't, but there are many ways to apologize or show thanks. None of what he said or did was sincere.
So then he asked to see me, take me out for a 'I'm sorry dinner'. I didn't respond.
I feel bad his cancer is back...and if this is his reality check that he could die and wants to see me one last time, I can't be a bitch and not do it. But I don't want to see him again....our magnetism is so strong.
What do you think?