An Innocent Man

I grew up listening to the music my older sisters liked, because I wanted to be just like them when I got older.  They seemed so old and wise - but anytime I reached the age they were, I felt like I had no clue what I was doing.  But that is a story for another day.   My sisters listened to typical 80s music and some 70s music.  In the car my parents listened to the Oldies station or some sort of easy listening.   I take with me a love for some great older groups/artists, especially Billy Joel, Chicago, Journey, Elton John, and Rod Stewart. 

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My sisters listened to Billy Joel's music over and over again that it was easy to memorize the lyrics to so many of the happy upbeat songs.  But as the time went on, I started to appriciate the lyrics too.   I have seen him in concert probably 5 times and have enjoyed each show. 

Two of my favorite songs has to do with trust.  After cop #1 I was really able to relate to "An Innocent Man' and "A Matter of Trust" and felt that the next person had to do a little work to get me to trust them, but then I'd open up and love unconditionally.  SI was willing to put up with my trust issue and then took full advantage of my sweetness.  While that relationship didn't end happily - I wonder how I will be able to handle trust in the future. Everytime I hear these songs (well, most of his songs) I sing along envisioning someone singing it to me, melting my heart to make me realize that 'wow, he is the one for me'.

I think enough time has passed by where it shouldn't be so hard for me to have some trust for someone else.  When I fall in love the next time, I will be ready and know that I have to tell myself this next person isn't my past, I can't hold them accountable for my issues.  It will be a little challenging, but I hope I know enough of the signs where I don't let bad things get too far.  I worry about another heartbreak but I am not going to let it stop me from trying. 

An Inncoent Man

Some people stay far away from the door

If there's a chance of it opening up

They hear a voice in the hall outside

And hope that it just passes by

Some people live with the fear of a touch

And the anger of having been a fool

They will not listen to anyone

So nobody tells them a lie

I know you're only protecting yourself

I know you're thinking of somebody else

Someone who hurt you

But I'm not above

Making up for the love

You've been denying you could ever feel

I'm not above doing anything

To restore your faith if I can

Some people see through the eyes of the old

Before they ever get look at the young

I'm only willing to hear you cry

Because I am an innocent man

Oh yes I am

Some people say they will never believe

Another promise they hear in the dark

Because they only remember too well

They heard somebody tell them before

Some people sleep all alone every night

Instead of taking a lover to bed

Some people find that's it's easier to hate

Than to wait anymore

I know you don't want to hear what I say

I know you're gonna keep turning away

But I've been there and if I can survive
I can keep you alive

I'm not above going through it again

I'm not above being cool for a while

If you're cruel to me I'll understand

Some people run from a possible fight

Some people figure they can never win

And although this is a fight I can lose

The accused is an innocent man

Oh yes I am

An innocent man

You know you only hurt yourself out of spite

I guess you'd rather be a martyr tonight

That's your decision

But I'm not below

Anybody I know

If there's a chance of resurrecting a love

I'm not above going back to the start

To find out where the heartache began

Some people hope for a miracle cure

Some people just accept the world as it is

But I'm not willing to lay down and die

Because I am an innocent man

I am an innocent man

Oh yes I am

An innocent man

copied from billyjoel.com