It has been about one year since I've started seeing my life coach. In anticipation for this month's meeting, I re-read most of my notebook and was happy to see a lot of personal improvement - feeling a lot better, not so depressed, etc. I realized that being around miserable/angry people is taking a toll on me, and I understand why a past friend stopped being my friend out of nowhere three years ago, although I don't condone how she went about it. I have been trying to find little things to keep me busy and doing things for myself which has helped my overall mood.
However I also realized that I am having a lot of trouble with follow through - especially when it comes to this job thing. I look and look, research and research...but I haven't done anything. At first I was upset about this but I realized that I wasn't ready a few months ago to transition even though I need to. I am more confident and happy now that I am sure that will show during any future interview. So while that is something that time has worked out, I still struggle with WHAT I want to do. I recently started thinking of a new career change and add that to the many others I've been thinking about plus the 'old standbys' (similar to what I do now) I just don't know how to choose. If I go the new route I need to come up with a few thousand dollars to further my education in that specific area. yeah, more loans :(
Another struggle is the hard time I have making new friends. I am one of those people that might be quiet at first, while I feel out someone to decide if the person is someone I'd want to hang out with. It takes me a while, longer than usual to make friends. I haven't made a new friend since I joined my book club. Unfortunately some of those friends have moved on with their lives and moved away or started families and it just hasn't worked out. I am not worried about having more friends after I have children...but it would be great if I could find a single female friend or two.
As for my 'love life' one of my areas of greatly needed improvement - well, you know it is non-existent. Sure, I had a few experiences where I learned more about me and what I want out of a future partner. I also went on some blind dates to help with the small talk - since I am so bad with that. But I am not worried. My time is approaching. I am ready. And I've been very patient with fate...it is my turn soon to get something good.
My health was another issue to tackle. I recently lost about 10 pounds, and ideally I'd like to loose another 7. I've managed to keep it off for five months. I also lowered my blood pressure quite a bit. I stopped checking it two times a day and more recently only check it every few weeks. I should be better about that to make sure it doesn't get too high again.
The last thing that was in the initial assessment of my life last year was family. I learned to distance myself a little - since I am the only single one & only one with out kids...it was hard for them to understand that at times I didn't want to do things with them especially if it focused around the kids...when it was no 'fun' for me. Sure, I am their Aunt...and I did go to a bunch of things, but it is important to limit that kind of stuff right now. I've looked, not many of my little kiddos have friends with single parents. I had other issues as well...but I'd prefer to keep that to myself right now. My family is great, I don't want you to get the wrong impression.
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