so much on my mind

Grrrr.  I have so much on my mind.  I don't know where to begin to start telling you about it.   I am not sleeping so well and I've been crying a bit.  I hate when my life is so uncertain.  And I think this past week I realized...that I really might end up alone after all.  I know I've blogged about that before and me saying it would be OK, and it would...but it is still really sad when one realizes they are facing the rest of their lives alone.