Straight up

Back when I was in love in my early 20s, I liked to send a song or make a CD to my person.  If a song randomly came on and I thought of him, I'd email him the lyrics or put it in a scrapbook.  Ever since then, when I hear certain songs I think of certain people.

Just this morning, I was flipping through the radio channels listening for a song to sing along to, and Straight Up by Paula Abdul came on.  I haven't heard this song since probably the 90s, but surprisingly I was able to sing along.  Isn't it amazing that your brain can remember song lyrics from so long ago, but I forgot what I ate for dinner three nights ago?

As I was singing, I realized that the lyrics are actually decent...a woman wants to know from a man what their situation is...don't tell me none of us ever thought that...we all have at some point or another.

For me, I have been thinking about it for the last year.  Let's read my version.

• I've been a fool before with SI and what he did to me, and I don't want that to repeat...so to make an informed decision....I need some information....PLEASE!
• You told me you loved me...but do you really mean it? I don' think so.  Why can't you  just tell me.
• This has been a very long few months, not knowing our situation...giving it more time so maybe I could feel you out and understand what you want.  When I get excited that there is potential or a future...I radiate happiness and get excited to see you.
• You are impossible to read.  You say one thing, do another. Make empty promises that you never keep.  You are playing with my emotions and taking advantage of me.  And now that I realize you are playing games - it's time to say...bye bye bye bye bye!
• Like I said, I've been hurt before, and I won't tolerate that again.
• You might think I give an ultimatum, but I just want the truth.  You wouldn't see it as a demand if you were really into me.

Clearly I do not articulate my feelings well.  That is what is so great about music. It can convey such a complicated message in under 4 minutes.  But this song is being dedicated to ManFriend. and to let you know I am so fu&*ing tired of you and your s*%t; if only you were straight up. 

And now for Paula's Version:  Straight Up - Paula Adbul
Lost in a dream 
Don't know which way to go 
If you are all that you seem 
Then baby I'm movin' way too slow 

I've been a fool before 
Wouldn't like to get my love caught 
In the slammin' door 
How about some information--please 

[Chorus:]
Straight up now tell me 
Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh 
Or am I caught in a hit and run 

Straight up now tell me 
Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh 
Are you just having fun 

Time's standing still 
Waiting for some small clue 
I keep getting chills 
When I think your love is true 

I've been a fool before 
Wouldn't like to get my love caught 
In the slammin' door 
How about some information--please 

[Chorus:] 
Straight up now tell me 
Do you really want to love me forever oh oh oh 
Or am I caught in a hit and run 
Straight up now tell me 
Is it gonna be you and me together oh oh oh 
Are you just having fun 

You are so hard to read 
You play hide and seek 
With your true intentions 
If you're only playing games 
I'll just have to say--bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye bye 

Do do you love me 
Do do you love me 
Do do you love me 
Do do you love me ?

I've been a fool before 
Wouldn't like to get my love caught 
In the slammin' door 
Are you more than hot for me 
Or am I a page in your history-book 

I don't mean to make demands 
But the word and the deed go hand in hand 
How about some information--please 

[Chorus cont.]

I've been a fool before 
Wouldn't like to get my love caught 
In the slammin' door 
Are you more than hot for me 
Or am I a page in your history-book 
I don't mean to make demands 
But the word and the deed go hand in hand 
How about some information--please