I am off New Years Eve day, so I am going to do what I do every NYE day, see a matinee, run errands but instead of getting Chinese food for dinner and going to bed early, I am hanging out with ManFriend in the evening. Which is ideal for me because I am still keeping a low profile and staying in...but get to kiss someone at midnight.
Since ManFriend revealed that happy bit the other night, I wanted to make our New Years a nice fun evening. Show him I care. Last year we invited a neighbor over, got drunk, chatted about everything & resolutions and kicked out the neighbor at 11:30 so we can make out - again.
This year, I am going to order a bunch of sushi and bring over 4 bottles of wine. I expect we'll drink about 3 of them. And hopefully we'll have as much fun sexually as we did last year.
My goal is to get him nice and chatty after 3 drinks and talk a little bit about us - what he thinks being part of a couple means, what he expects, how often he would like to see me, things like that. I don't think other people have these chats about defining boundaries in relationships...but with ManFriend, I think it is kinda necessary. Maybe not if we are a couple, but when things were causal it was needed because we were rarely on the same page at the same time. It lead to a ton of miscommunication, annoyance and confusion. I am also a little scared because it means I am trusting someone and putting my heart on the line. I want to be in love...but I am not 100% sure this will last, so I am hesitant. But I just have to go along with it and see I guess. I'll never know if I don't try.
Wow, this will be the second NYE that I am kissing the same person. I say that is progress.
Update: Nope, ManFriend changed the plans. We are going to a bar at the late hour or 9:30. I hate getting old because this sounds HORRIBLE. I am exhausted at it is 7pm, dealing with a crowded bar, drunk drivers and eating alone.
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