I previously blogged about coming to terms that I am still single and that I might always be single. I might have been wrong.
Recently I was speaking to SI. It came out that he has vacationed with women to the islands and other areas. Why tell me? I told him I didn't want details, I don't want to know these things. When we were together for 4+ years, we didn't go away. I wanted to. We always talked about it. Where to go. The Islands, Europe, Australia, etc. But he was too consumed with his work, and I guess he didn't like me enough because we never went. So, he has had one super serious relationship (mistress --> girlfriend --> fiancee --> wife?) and now several rebounds from her.
I haven't had any. NONE. How pathetic. I was the one that was hurt. I was the one that wanted to be in a relationship. I was the one that tried. I was the one that wants love. And dammit, I wanted it more....which is probably why I didn't get it.
It.is.not.fair. Yeah, I know life isn't fair. But, you'd think I'd get my turn to be somewhat happy soon. I'm getting really tired of waiting for things to fall into place.
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